endless ache

when i think deeply in my room the darkness engulfs me
fallin endlessly in the abyss
whispers caress my skin as they prickle each sensor
the slumber lingering near me is the smell of lavender as the smell devours the air
warm drops touch my skin as i look down astonished at the endless ache
the ache creeps up from my bones into my soul
filling my stomach it seeps into my lungs
anchoring deep filling my lungs full with a rage filled cry
opening my mouth to scream from the burning that creeps through me
yet i sit quietly smiling, looking on with an occassional laugh

asthetics to those that look upon
unknowing of the storms that wage inside of me
anxiety leaks into me like toxic waste seeps into the earth

fear grasps me like a thief in the night when I awake again with you standing at the end of my bed..

a nightmare I thought long gone...but not forgotten.