The days move on

As the days pass I realize more and more how lucky I am to have the life I have. I have a loving husband who treats me like a queen....sometimes I think I am his queen b***h lol. But he smiles and tells me he loves me. Of late I have been sick. I hate being sick... but perhaps if I take my medicine my stomach wouldn't be so grumpy. Classes are winding down, actually only 2 more days of real class time. I am so happy to see the spring classes to come to an end.



Tonight I think of my cat that has ran away. I pray for his return. If he comes home I will give him lots of love and TUNA! (just putting that out in the cosmos)



Spiritually I feel a change, and believe it is time for me to change and to reach back to my roots and ways of life that I have forgotten. Nothing extravagant but something a bit more down to my level. As for our home, it is slowly becoming ours again. I am looking forward to actually start sewing and gardening again. *grins* I am looking ot grow some homemade tomatoes so I can make homemade salsa when we want it.



I made some recently and used the peppers my dad gave me and well..lets say it was a HIT! So was my dad's peppers.



Lately I have wondered where I am religiously. Do I believe in GOD? Jesus? Virgin Mary?....these questions swirl in my mind like currents in and ocean. I believe in God....but-there is so much I have learned about religion and I have seen so much that man has changed. So where does God's word still be God's word. And then again I feel as though there can be more than God. For were we not taught we wre made in thier image. So does this lead us to believe there is more than one God?



Too much to truly think on tonight. My head hurts and it is late. I have a very long day ahead of me perhaps tomorrow sometime I can think some more on this subject. Until then adieu.

my week

Things have been crazy. Last monday I burned my hand at work. I ended up with a second degree burn that got infected. Well i tell ya it sucks when you get infected and get sick from it. Well work has gone to hell because of our "manager" who can't handle the pressure of being a manager. She makes people work freaking 10 h our days and they are part time. Its like um yeah. Well I haven't seen my schedule yet and won't until tomorrow. I sat at the freaking health center all day for them to tell me they double scheduled so i have to come back tuesday at 112o. So i am like fun fun. They couldn't get me in today so i am like yea.


But oh well ... i am gonna go for now. just wanted to just vent a second.

*rises from ashes*

Ok it has been forever since I have actually been on. Omg.. I think I need to dust off my laptop. I've posted a couple of voice post but not many actual typed ones. I have been an bad blogger...
So far the issue is one school has been so crazy plus part time work and all that took place last year. Losing my real mom to an issue that really bothers me. *idiot doctors*
Then this year I had great news I am now Sandy Weldon! I can't believe I actually took teh leap and got married.
My lap top is dying due to the mnay errors of late. I am like grrrr.... now my vid card is going out. SOOOOO....i have to call HP again and be like um yeah .... it didn't work so can we please replace my vid card? because i've had 4 people who work on laptops everyday go .. your video card is goin out. They can't touch it due to my warranty on my laptop... *tear*
so.....here i am finally a time to breathe and hopefully get myself back grounded. I don't knwo if anyone has ever lost themselves but i think i lost myself for a while. I am slowly realizing there is alot I am missing in life because i refuse to open my eyes and see it. I guess once we experience a pain that rips our insides out we want to just lie down and sleep in hopes when we wake it will be gone. I have done alot of thinking and realized I need to do serious soul searching. I've wanted my home to be just me and gary for sometime in hopes maybe i will mellow out. I have been so tightly wound i am unsure if i am coming or going. my life has been turned upside down with the death of my mother. everyone still talks about her. i want to talk about her but it is difficult for me. I guess it is because it is still so fresh in my heart.
maybe soon i will be able to be my happy go lucky self. I am unsure of it but i am hoping i can be :)