my mom

Well my mom is doing a bit better than she was last weekend. The nurse assured me she was moving in a positive direction to recovery. I am so happy on that note. This weekend I have tried to get my mind back in the right direction. Its really hard when all you can think about is, "Will my mom live?" I never thought at 28 I would be looking at possibly loosing my maternal mom. It is quite scarey. I am dealing with it as best as I know how but, still it is scary. My sister is /was taking it very hard. I hope soon thou she will be able to deal with a bit better.

I've been thinking on all the stuff going on in my life and realize god, i so need to get back on track to the things i love the most. I miss sewing. I use to sit down and sew once or twice a week. I don't do that much ANYMORE. So i think once i move my one desk in the living room, back to sewing i go :) Perhaps I will make something simple or maybe something ren festie. Or something everyday. I don't knwo we will see. I don't write my pen pals or read as much as i use to. I don't knwo what happened. I just lost myself.

As for me and my love of my life. Things are going better with me and him. Which I am grateful for. I am trying to talk to him more which is ag ood thing. I have more people coming into my life that I saw as good friends once. So I hope that is a good sign. I have to stop shunning my friends. Its not a good thing to do you know. I just get awkward when people start getting close to me. Issues. Funny things.

Well I think I have killed enough time tonite on Guild Wars with Liz and Gary. I so need to get in touch with my one friend and let him know I"ve not ignored him. new friends can be finicky lol.

Midterm

well today is a sleepy day again....

we have a tornado warning until 1am, but the rain is so delightful. went to class and took my exam. i was the first to finish... *worries* i hope i did well...

then ...... omg ok i know i am so trying to blog my day but you kknow i was so exited that he took a vacation day but nwo i am liek omfg i wish he was at work instead...

instead of sittin on his fucking computer going have you seen my new photos or watching stupid ass videos on the pc....

i mean hello didn't he take the day to be with me? i mean for christ's sake...he is getting so bad on his pc its not funny ....i don't know... i just...i think i am gonna go walk in the rain a little bit because i will feel better if i do..

well sis has the tacos done..yeah chicken tacos..the best ever...

canceled class...working ipod

well got to class tonite and it was cancelled... fun fun....my professor has been sick so we got out of class once again. so i decided to stick around on campus and do some studying..unfortunately, i forgot my headphones to my lap top...so in my gym bag...so but i did get a show while deciphering my history notes.

a couple was horseplaying on the walkway in front of the little gazebo area i was sitting and unfortunately their horseplay and her flip flops ended her up on her bottom on the side walk. she laughing and him laughing and stating overly i did not push you lol. then called for witnesses who just continued to laugh at them both.

the weather began to look a little threatening so i decided to head home to take and get my school bag back in working order and get ready for class tomorrow.

finally getting to the house i decided to fix my notes an print out ohter notes that is needed for exam. yippee midterms...right now i am sporting 2 B's and 2 A's.

finding my old ipod i finally decided to attempt to get it working again...no sound once charged but a couple of taps here and there and poof a working ipod .....so now its charging some more so i am hoping after that no more problems lol..as long as i don't remove teh head phones from the jack.

dinner was awesome...but the snacks were better...

found out my sis actually has thursday off so i am like awesomeness we all can go out to get a bite to eat....

i have found that i am becoming obstinent to my friend. Sometimes i wonder if he sees me more than a friend? something that couldn't be possible...

oh well i need sleep....nite

Rainey Day

today it has been very nice, the clouds are full and grey...sitting in the sky so gloomy yet...I carry a smile on my face...

my lap top sits on the tv stand on the porch as i click away at the keys to write my pen pals who are around the world. missing them i quickly type each one telling them of the updated things in my life.

but today isn't a slack day, I have to study for an midterm exam tomorrow, plus i have to finish the english assignment for the day. class begins at 630 and it is 530 now..i guess i should grab a shower to freshen up and get ready for class.

ah a shower would be nice, maybe i will sit at school a bit before coming home. that would be nice to be out of the house. perhaps i will do that. find me a comfy spot outside and just relax. hmm i am off here and into the shower...

jealous of the lazy cats lying here and there in teh house... :)