my mom

Well my mom is doing a bit better than she was last weekend. The nurse assured me she was moving in a positive direction to recovery. I am so happy on that note. This weekend I have tried to get my mind back in the right direction. Its really hard when all you can think about is, "Will my mom live?" I never thought at 28 I would be looking at possibly loosing my maternal mom. It is quite scarey. I am dealing with it as best as I know how but, still it is scary. My sister is /was taking it very hard. I hope soon thou she will be able to deal with a bit better.

I've been thinking on all the stuff going on in my life and realize god, i so need to get back on track to the things i love the most. I miss sewing. I use to sit down and sew once or twice a week. I don't do that much ANYMORE. So i think once i move my one desk in the living room, back to sewing i go :) Perhaps I will make something simple or maybe something ren festie. Or something everyday. I don't knwo we will see. I don't write my pen pals or read as much as i use to. I don't knwo what happened. I just lost myself.

As for me and my love of my life. Things are going better with me and him. Which I am grateful for. I am trying to talk to him more which is ag ood thing. I have more people coming into my life that I saw as good friends once. So I hope that is a good sign. I have to stop shunning my friends. Its not a good thing to do you know. I just get awkward when people start getting close to me. Issues. Funny things.

Well I think I have killed enough time tonite on Guild Wars with Liz and Gary. I so need to get in touch with my one friend and let him know I"ve not ignored him. new friends can be finicky lol.