Friday, January 9, 2009

Brethren

kindred spirit
one to smile
laugh and cry
like a star
so beautiful
bright and endless
my heart
fills greatly
with happiness
a cool fall
lightly brushes
my soul
when your hand
touches mine
chaotic yet orderly
does my mind
settling only
when you are near
overwhelming you are
my kindred spirit
yes you are
forever shall
the stars
peer upon you
with loving eyes
in loving memory of my mother,
Matilda Diane Bonnell
Mom How do I live without you?

Just about this week

Well its been a few days since I posted...Grr..i've had to work all week and my lap top is off to HP people to get fixed. So i am stuck with coming to the desk top for my p ost... BLASPHEMY!

Work has been good my stepmom i sback at work so all the lazy ppl are now forced to work hehe...I loves it!hmm sunday I was off me and gary went and had fun before he went to work..which the lunch we had made him sick so he was at home with me :) I loved it. So i chlled and played gears of war that me and him are playing.

I've beenon rock band 2 alot also. Hmm... so i also ended up crashing sunday also after giving gary many kisses before bed.

Monday....lets see i was hoping for a nite alone but no cigar...Al was home.. BUMMEr I miss days when i could come home and NO ONE be here. Sigh one day it will just be our place again. lol

Tuesday....went grocery shopping after work. I got liz to go with me so I wouldn't be alone. She was asleep oops i woke her up :) We had chicken brocoli alfredo and wine. Yellow Tail Merlot is a good wine. Strong but a good wine.

Wednesday...well I got paid and was froggy so I came home and got my sister to get her but dressed and off we went. To the mall...I bought these awesome boots from HOT TOPIC..omg they were cute. Soft leather with the lace up the outter side. I've been drooling for months over these boots so I finally said **** it and I got them. So after The mall and the rather serious scare I had of loosing my phone. Thank god someone at the service desk had it. I was like great now i will have to take my boots back just so I can get a new phone! CRAP>..but i lucked out it was at the service desk.

We then decided to go to Las Bandaras to eat. Well......this was Hilarious because our waiter seemed to be infatuated with me. He could not understnad I had a boyfriend and wasn't leaving him anytime soon! THen he was like you know spanish. I was like very little------>big mistake...i should have said no....god...dude was on me crazy....finally he takes our order and leaves. He comes back and continues to flirt. I am like omg go away but instead I smile and am like thank you. At the end of the nite he is like you want a to go box we are like yes please. Then he asked me do you want to take me home? I was like um no you would so get me in trouble!

After there we went home and changed our shirts (we were in our corset style shirts from HOt TOpic we decided to wear them bc we hardly wear them when we go out) off to books amillion we go. I fill in my lovely moleskin i got in the mail and we have coffee and chill.

Ah and for yesterday..me and my step mom jo went out. I took her out for her birthday. We meet at the mall. We had our nails done and she was so tickled I showed her the place. Its 10 bucks more there but the nails it self are better because of the fact the white tip isn't painted on :) she loved that. So after Our nails we were like FOOD so I showed her another new place to her....the little buffet place in the mall... *brain fart* I so can't remember the name...grr... but its a chinese place. We ate and was like omg good@ she wants to take my dad there one nite. I think he will love it ;)

Then we decide after food we need a hair cut...her a cut me a trim. They had remodeled master cuts (i get my hair cut here all the time) plus there was a new staff added...a guy named Warren cut our hair. He was very serious about our hair..he washed it and then cut it. I never get my hair washed lol... curly hair and it is picky! but he so got my hair back kinky again! Wee... he pretty much man handled my hair but omg it looked great! So here we walked in feeling bleh and walked out feeling like new women!

Ah lets see...oh yeah I got gary out of bed...after I read my mail from my friend Maiju...short letter but worth reading :) It was nice to get a letter from her. I have to finish my letter to Kristy :) then I need to send my friend Jacinta a letter :) I loves my friends who are all around ;) Getting mail is so awesome when its from someone new and from a different niche in the world !

Ah after kicking gary out of bed we got ready to go out (i is almost broke lol) Liz had some friends over so we chilled a bit before going to CJ's pub and pool and shooting a couple of games of pool...and oh Gary so lost his shirt ot me in pool...i won 4 out of 6 games :)

Hehe he is grumpy now..i took his pc to do my journal post lol hehe....oh well...oops on the 360 he goes POUTS we were suppose to go out today.... grrr... boys!Well I guess I will go I am hungry and wants food so I think i will get in my kitchen and create a new dish or somethign random!TTFN

Friday, January 2, 2009

Reflections of 2008

I know perhaps I should have done this earlier but work did not permit that. SO lets see... my year of 2008...

Hmm, we lived with Gary's dad in January which lasted until March... we had moved in prior to that in 2007. Things were good, I left my job to help his dad which I found to be a complete disaster on my part.

We moved to Valdosta at our current house....We've been here since May.

Things money wise has gone up adn down. Sometimes so badly it frightened me.

I managed to keep us a float. Which was good. Me and Gary almost split up this year...we had a very bad fight. We found out though that we are happy together and no matter what we fight over its not worth losing what we've got.

Which brings us to the happy news of my 2008, which was Gary proposed to me in February.

Unfortunately just as my year was growing better, it was darkened greatly. My Mother, Matilda, grew very ill. She had a stroke the day after my birthday in October. She soon grew worse and I had to make the most awfullest decisions a child should ever have to make. My mother died the week before her birthday/Thanksgiving Day. So now my heart is still very hurt ....tonite me and my sister were talking of my mom.... I miss her and so does my sister...what happens when you lose your best friend and mother?

My step mom and my dad they have finally came back to me..due to my divorce to my retarded ex...he turned my family against me. Now they have realized how stupid he was almost 5 years later....*grumbles*

I managed to get back in school this year and start on masters in education. so that is a positve thing... I ended this last semester with 3 B's and 1 A :) I hope to do even better next semester which starts teh 14th of this month.

My poor car is still running...which is an amazing thing... *grins* one day I will get everything fixed on it lol...it needs new headlights, speedometer, new tires, wind shield wipers.....so yeah that is just the tip of the ice burg...

Hmmm.....lets see..ah yes I have a job....Its not much but it is a job. I work at a deli in a super market here in Valdosta. My boss is my step mom which isn't a bad thing.

I've read many books....but during school its mainly text books lol...

Hmmm... i really can't think of any thing else to place...this is the abridged version lol

Thursday, January 1, 2009

I am the empress of evil(december 31st post)

OMG I have been so bleh lately. My laptop went on the fritz, so I've been trying to get it up and going. I've not posted about my Holidays yet. So lets see, Christmas day was very good. I loved my gifts I got! My mum and dad got me a picture box to store my pics in and a lock box to lock up money when i need. Hmmm but isn't that what a bank account is for? And she got me some awesome stationary! it is beige and red with a red dress on the edge...i love it the dress looks like something I would wear. *squees*

I got some awesome stationary from friends and some really cool buttons! My switch gifter at work gave me a cheese cutter set and a pretty necklace set from Avon. BUt it was nice.

I have been sick this past week still don't feel so up in the weather. I am seriously not wanting to go to work tomorrow. I slept in way late today and well its seriously messed up my sleeping schedule.

Work has been ok, my step mum is on vacation so the lazy people don't really want to work. Which pisses me off because when i am there, I am the one who all the work is thrown on. *grumbles*

Things have been odd because I seem to be off railed. I make messes left and right. . . . I don't know what is wrong with me lately. I seem off I don't know.

I know I will be glad when I am back on track.

Tonight I wanted to talk to my friend Matt. But I don't knwo why? Perhaps in a sense I am missing talking to him more than I thought I would.

I have also set today on my day off and watch tv all day. Silly I know but hey....it is something to do that requires no thought.

I got into watching the Secret diary of a Call girl......8 episodes 24 mins a piece. Interesting show.....then it made me think that boy I need to work out more..... damn you Billie Piper....and you're flat tummy and nice ass *cries*

Well I need sleep and a hot shower before work at oh...lets say 10am and its like oh....3 am now...god i need sleep.....

oh the line up in the subject...hehe guess where that came from? Its a movie.... :grins: one that I love to watch adn laugh at.